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I actually don't have any place to vent to now....i left my friends cus i thought it would help my mindset and that it would be better and not just better for me but for them... i do think it was kinda good for me and it kinda helped but on the oither hand it really jsut made it worse with all the lies...well idk everything sounds as a lie and i jsut cant talk to my other friends i dont feel comfortable i fele abd i wanna leave them alone too i wanna jsut lock myself up and never come out and jsut die i cant speak to my psichologist i cant speak to anybody i'M all alone... more i i jsut feel like all alone i don't wanna fall back into all of

I could...but it would feel weird and feel like i'm complaning too much..i mena i am jsut complaning but still feels bad to complain to my friends all the time.... So basically what happened was i made a shitpost about rusame (the ship) and i posted it on amino and then i got comment like "LET IT DIE" (cus the shit psot was about how the rusame ship is dying) and I kinda felt liek they were jokes and stuff but it still felt bad to know i might have oofended some ppl so i kinda edited the whole thing to jsut an apologi and did apologize in the comments too but i jsut couldn't stop crying over it (yes i am a cry baby hello) and i jsut feel bad

I'm venting here cus I have no other place...after what happened...soooo my original asshole self is back and I'm started to lose all of my friends because how they say 'I'm a princess who attacks them for no reason". So what happened: I have a dutchie and this friend we're going to call her Nancy sent me a pic of Telephone (a fanart) and started asking me pretty strange questions and I usually react differently than normal ppl (cus I'm not normal) and so I realized that Nancy thought I copied Telephone I don't care and she even said that "What I can't say that you copy?" and I said yes she can say that I really don't care. But then from no w